No, not Elijah's...mine. So far, he still seems pretty okay with Mama and Daddy leaving him with one set of grandparents...but it tears me up inside. Even our regular 2 days a week for the three hours we are both at work at the same time. I hate leaving him with anyone. And I actually feel really badly about that because I know my parents and my in-laws take great care of him and have a lot of fun, too.
It's gotten to the point that I kind of want to take him everywhere with me. I had a doctor's appointment in downtown Chicago last Tuesday and wanted to bring him along. But my mom, who was driving, said it would be hard on him. So I left him with my in-laws and then was anxious the whole time. But somehow, leaving while Nathan is home is different, I don't get as nervous about that.
I'm naturally a little solitary and every couple months I do have to have some time to myself. Luckily, last week, Nathan and a friend of his who was visiting, stayed in on a night I had off. So, I got Elijah put to bed and then went up to DeKalb to see Disney's Brave. I didn't know if I'd like being at the movies by myself, but I had a great time. I bought my own box of mini chewy Sweettarts and sat at the back of the theater. The movie was cute, but I had the best time being there alone.
I don't know if all this anxiety is normal. And I can't tell if it's a good thing or not.
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